I'm retiring this Xanga.

RosesOnSatinSheets is old.

I don't want to remember this.

So you will all go to

www.xanga.com/LaptopxSouvenir

and subscribe to that one.

<3-Roux

Today I realized that I'm exactly where I want to be in my life. Things finally seem to be looking up. I do lack a few things that could make me happy, but c'est la vie I suppose.

Tonight, my bestest friend ever is going to the Olive Garden with me to celebrate my birthday. And then she will go shopping at Park City with us. And everything is going to go right, because tomorrow is my birthday, and that is cool.

I think I may not be sick, just allergies. Because I'm not getting stuffy or anything, I just have a migraine that Excedrin won't cure. So, I'll tough it out and see what happens.

Also, I'm in the process of looking for a banner for my Xanga. If anyone knows of any good places to find one, please let me know.

<3- R to tha O to tha U to tha X

So, I originally had an entry about me missing Pie, but I decided to save you guys from my sorrow and post these humourous things instead.

Things that are increasingly hilarious in this letter are in bold. Enjoy. It is why I miss Benjamin...

Spring is The Season For Love!!
So boys and girls a couple things here to tell you. We are a little over a week into the "NOISE TO THE WOLRD" tour with Simple Plan and Reliant K and it has been great. Thank you to everyone who has come out and watched the show. When we played Kansas City we went from the stage to a plane that took us to the Skywalker Ranch, which is in Marin County in Northern California. We were blessed with the oppurtunity to play the TRL Episode III release at the Ranch. That place is so beautiful. If you are not aware, us GC boys loves us some Star Wars so we were completely geeking out the whole time. Especially when we got to meet George Lucas. He was a man of few words but it was still an amazing moment. We then got to watch a screening, of the movie, in the sound stage where they make all the noises and music for Lucas Films. it was really cool. The movie was amazing. We still can't stop talking about it. I highly recomend everybody seeing it. It is maybe the best one ever. Anyway so I had my camera ready the whole time and there are a whole bunch of new pics in the other photos section under the media dial. Select Star Wars Episode III and you will see us looking like giddy little schoolgirls. Also on a sad note I broke my big toe on my right foot two nights ago after a show in Indianapolis. I thought I was Superman and triied to kick something that was a lot stronger than my foot. Please kids don't try this at home; it hurts. But I am not gonna be a baby. I am going to finish out the tour and hopefully this will heal as fast as possible. You will be surprised how much a man can headbang even though he's sitting down. So please come out to the shows and check it out. We have thrown some songs in the set that we haven't played for a while and so far they are getting great reactions. So come on down and we will have a humdinger of a great time. Thanks for stopping by the site and may the force be with you. (You all may be wondering how I know this is Benji. Easy. Joel doesn't type in all caps. And Benji is quite aware of perfect English. Good boy. Sit. Stay.)

The following pictures are hilarious to me...

<3 P to tha A to tha U to tha L <3

So they've replaced Chris with Star Wars characters, have they? That should make for really cool shows...

There's nothing prettier than that. Yum. :)

A couple of notes:
1) Joel, you aren't too cool for Star Wars. Just because your girlfriend is my age doesn't make you any better. Have some fun, lighten up, and LAUGH for God's sake!
2) Billy, you aren't allowed to die! Especially my strangulation! *side swallows*
3) Benji, you aren't supposed to choke yourself! Have you no shame?
4) Paul, I enjoy your goofiness. And that bag that looks vaguely like it might be guitar shaped and similar to mine?
5) CHRIS! GET BETTER! YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE THERE HAVING FUN WITH THEM! NOOOOO!

And I do miss Pie. A lot. I realized while talking about him the past few weeks, that I really miss him. He was the only boy to treat my respectably. Really respectably. Except Sebby. Who I also miss.

<3-Roux

I think it just clicked in my mind that my aunt is dying. That scares me. A lot. But I guess I'll get over it.

Or maybe I won't...

<3-Roux

EDIT//

i think i'm going to just give up on this night. maybe tomorrow morning, things will be better. all i seem to be able to do to-night is upset people.

my best friend - that comment wasn't meant to upset you. i was just struck with strong memories of last year, when she would constantly put in her info/xanga "one day anniversary!". i'm sorry i put past experiences into the present and think that the present will repeat the past. it's what i'm used to. i'm sorry i dwell on the past. it's my fault. you should know that by now. you should also know that i love you, and that i say things because i can trust you with them, and that i know you'll be able to understand my feelings. i guess i was wrong on that one. my fault. sorry.

my daddy's family- i know i should be upset that she's dying. but i for some reason can't force myself to be. i know it kind of hurts you that i'm not upset it, but i can't help my hard heartedness. i also can't help the fact that dad's whole family ignore me when i'm there. i also can't help that i'm quiet and "weird" and just like to be by myself. the truth is, i need the alone time. i need the time to just think and enjoy myself for a little bit because i don't do it during the week. i also need the time to sleep, because i don't do that during the week either. forgive me for it all. please.

my detroit- i'm sorry for just about that whole conversation. it wasn't meant to upset you, though i knew it would. i just couldn't stand to do that anymore. i did love you. really. i did like talking to you...in fact i still do. i don't want to stop talking to you. i want to be friends. because we are good friends. i don't want you to be upset, though you clearly are. i want to somehow make it up to you. i also want to somehow make you feel better about living on the streets for two months. i also wish i could see you and hug you and make the apology a little better. but i can't. i'm sorry.

Roar. I'm really bored. So I'm going to update at random.

I'm currently watching "Big Daddy". This movie makes me laugh.

We had a yard sale today. We sold a lot of stuff. My little brother tried to buy a giant Coke bottle cooler. It didn't work too well. My step mom just wouldn't give him the $75 to buy it. Shame, really. He could have had his own fridge in his room. Que sera sera I guess.

Mmm...it's really cold in my house. This could also be because I was walking outside in the rain and the cold.

*gasp* Trixxxie! Holy crap!

Hmmm....I have nothing left to say. If I think of something, I'll post it later.